Freckle Eye Fancy

I can't believe it's already Monday. And I can't believe it's the end of January! This month went so fast, especially once I started working again. There aren't enough hours in the day to work and cook and clean and relax and work out and all the other things we want to do!! We rounded off January with a trip to Disneyland. James and Candis were going for her birthday and invited us to go with them. Last Saturday, Brandon and I looked at flights, but they were more than I wanted to spend, and we didn't know if I would need surgery or not, so I was a mean wife and said we shouldn't go. But then Sunday morning, I woke up before Brandon, and decided that we needed to go. So I booked the trip while he was still sleeping, and actually got a really good deal on it. We couldn't drive, since I don't technically have any days I can take off from work, but we actually got the flight and hotel together for less than the flights alone had been on Saturday nig...

Three months today since we lost him. I feel like Brandon and I have been fairly optimistic since we lost Carter, as optimistic as anyone who loses a child can be anyway. I tell myself it happened for a reason, even though sometimes I don't want to believe it. I don't think there was a reason for it on our side, but that maybe Carter was just needed somewhere else, and we won't know the reason why until a long time from now. But I have learned a lot of things since we lost him. I'd rather have Carter, but if I can't have him back, I guess now is a prime time to learn some things.  I was rereading some of my posts from the last three months, and noticed that I have said "if Carter has taught me anything, it's that..." so many times. So I started thinking about the things I have learned/discovered/implemented more since that beautiful awful day. Always tell the people I love that I love them. My family and I have never been ones to drop the L bomb, bu...

For the past four months, the phrase "when it rains, it pours" has been so ridiculously applicable to my life. Bad news after bad news was flung in my direction, and there wasn't much I could do except stand there and let it hit me. There were the few scares with Carter, then losing him, then not being able to get a job, and then I found out that my thyroid wasn't working properly. It was super over-active, to the point that it would affect our ability to get pregnant again until it got fixed. And like, realistically, thyroid problems are super common and very easily treatable, but at the time it was like the straw that broke the camel's back, you know? (side note: that phrase has been running through my head for the past two weeks so sorry if I sound like an old person) I left an appointment with the endocrinologist feeling so upset and discouraged. He said my thyroid looked pretty bad, and told me about what options we would have if my bloodwork came back bad...

Now that so many of my friends have kids, I hear pretty often about how terrible it is when little Johnny stops taking naps. And I just think to myself, these kids have no idea how much they'll miss naps when they're older. If I could take over napping for them, I totally would. I started my new job on Wednesday last week, and despite the fact that I have to get out of bed before nine (wayyyy before nine), I actually am enjoying it. It's very different from what I'm used to, being in the midst of chaos and crazy in the schools, but it's good in a different way. I do miss the kids and working with a lot of people, but the people I work with are very nice, and the work keeps me busy, which is important. I'm still getting the hang of things, but so far I feel like I'm doing a good job! I'm still not quite used to leaving the house for nine hours a day, though. Even though some days were a little lonely and boring at home, I got used to being with the cat...

A few weeks before Christmas I got a message on Instagram from a lady I didn't know. She had attached a drawing she had done of someone else's baby that had passed away, and asked if she could draw Carter for us. She said she had stumbled across one of my pictures on her search page. I don't know what prompted her to click on it, but I'm so glad she did. The drawing came in the mail the other day, and I am just so grateful for this kind stranger and the wonderful thing she does for parents like Brandon and me.

Honestly, sometimes I just don't know what to title my posts. I have had the hiccups like ten times in the past week and it's driving me crazy!!! One day last week I had them four times in one day. I was afraid I'd be one of those headline stories: "Girl has hiccups for fifteen years straight, doctors can't find cure." The worst. Anyway, we're almost a third of the way through January, and this winter is shaping up to be better than I anticipated for our first winter back in Utah. Boise has gotten way more snow than we have, and have had four  snow days! I can remember having like, one while I was in school. There was one the first year I worked in the school district there, but four?? It's so crazy. And even Logan had a snow day last week too, which for real never happens. It snowed Wednesday night here, but by late Thursday morning, everything on the roads had either turned to slush or was gone. And one of those days last week, I think Friday, gav...